Wow what an absolute nightmare. Never in my entire life have I gone through pain like that. The large hernia I had entangled with my intestines causing a shutdown/blockage of my intestines. Unfortunately after the surgery the nightmare continued as my intestines shutdown twice. Once at the hospital and a second time when I made it briefly home to recover.
When my system shutdown a second time I felt deathly sick, I couldn’t keep anything down and had a bucket in my hand, I felt horribly weak, and there again was an unbearable pain so bad that I begged the doctors to put me asleep. The hospital told me I would have to be re-admitted because the condition was very serious. At one point out of shear weakness I begin to fade into sleep and a wave of concern had me questioning whether or not I was at deaths door. Just then I realized how content I was with that, it was a calm that consumed me. I had a full life. I had a loving family and we were good to each other. I dedicated my entire life to Spirit and God, serving them without question or complaint , and though I never made any great impact with the world predictions I felt I had helped a great deal of people over my 40 year lifetime. Though I had no desire to die I was content if it was time.
But I am alive! I woke up the next day strapped with hoses and wires on my body, as they drained me of all liquids. That damn pain consumed me. It would be a few days before I could walk again. At one point I looked out into the city of San Diego, cars racing on the highway, people walking down below, then my mind shifted; I am not content at all, as God is my witness, as Spirit is the fire around me, I am resolute in my mission to alter these ghastly horrible predictions I receive. Before my death I will create an impact and leave with a legacy to remind all those people with gifts of precognition that this power doesn’t need to be tabloid fodder, or entertainment, for the masses, it can be used to make an impact on the world, making lives a little bit better. I will have that day, when the darkness does not come to pass. So here I am starting again, I am back, and I am resolute.
I want to thank everyone for their support, for their donations, for their help and aid, and for their patience during my difficult time. You have shown me a wonderful world and community filled with love and generosity.